Home Sweet Home

I have said that I am a number of things--a Thelemite, a Christian Scientist, a Hare Krishna--thing is, eclecticism only goes so far--when there is a fork in the Path, one must choose the way he wants to go. He must know how to go Home, where all his doubts are resolved, and all his questions are answered, and where he feels peaceful and satisfied--Home Sweet Home is essentially metaphysical--so which philosophy will carry him there? The fork in the Way is between the Personal and the Impersonal, between loving service as an eternal individual to the Supreme, Loving Autocrat, or to losing one's identity by merging into the Impersonal Absolute or the Voidness. Crowley choose the Voidness but he did not intend to stay there--"a dip in the Tao" was his idea.

Personally, I am captivated by a certain conception of the Highest, which Srila Sridhara Dev calls the "Krishna conception". In it, the High God is an eternal Playboy among the Damsels of Vraja--this is the highest conception, called Goloka, or Planet of the Cows. These Gopis are not ordinary cowherd girls--each is more than many demigoddesses--and supreme over all is Radhika, or Radharani, or Sri Radha, the dearest consort of Sri Krishna--and He simply engages in pleasure pastimes with these Gopis (and Gopas), without a care in the world, as the many Universes run automatically by his potencies. God has nothing to do--this is a very captivating concept.