Getting Too Close

I sometimes think that all this stuff about becoming the intimate friend of God, or even His conjugal lover---aren't I becoming a sahajiya? Many people are satisfied just to be able to worship the True God in a formal manner, and do a little service--most of the Christian world is quite content with some distance between themselves and the Lord--they have some awe and some fear of what might happen if they get too close--and yet the Apostolic Blessing is not diminished, and grace continues to flow. It is maybe a more decorous way to approach God, and highly impertinent to bring pastimes of Goloka into it--I was raised in that, and I really liked it--we kept our distance from God and Christ, but we were happily in their fold. Maybe I am "playing with God', as one streetcorner preacher accused. Maybe we should learn awe and reverence first, and become Vaikuntha men before we go to Goloka!!